legomyelfboy

Monday February 10, 2003-since when did feb have two r's?
hello my beautiful and faithful blog friends! i hope you like this new layout, its from liz designs and they have a ton of really great ones there so CHECK IT OUT. i like the whole wee 'foy vs. harry thing going on. its getting me hyped up for harry 5 which comes out soon. oh and dont worry, im getting a countdown somewhere. so today (and since sat) i was sick as a DOG. and unfortunatly , im not quite sure i'm going to be back tommorow. dont think i dont miss you all though. i do! REALLY! ok. welli just sneezed again, and i'm gonna go before i infect the computer any more. LOVE YOU ALL!

Samir

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im actulley updating. and this is not a test. i changed everything because it was all GETTING TO ME DAMNIT and i was tired of that. it was, after all, stupid and boring and WAY TOO WHITE for my liking. thisis my inbetween thinger. until i find another. but i love the green. like a ....pea or something. so yesterday was going down hill and almost to crashing and then i went to TARGET with the Hags monster. it WAS SO MUCH FUN. i got....the cd OK GO (havent listened yet), and Abbey road (fell asleep out of fatique while listening to), BETTER blue mascara, EARRINGS, and ....bobby pins. YAYAYYAY! OH AND GUESS WHAT? i might get my hair curled (not kinky, wavy) perm. in the summer! WAHHOO AND THEN SOME! so back to the show about haley and those other wierdos. so we were walking/running and jumping around target and everyother convo was like HALEYHALEYHALYEHLAYEHADFKDFJKDJFKJDFKDJCOME HERE AND LOOK AT THIS ....ok sarah you know you dont have to shou HALEYHALEY!COME QUUUUUICK! it was great. i ate a whole personal pizza. yum. SHIT i gotta call d. so we had tons of fun but go to her blog for the whole deal. she can recall it better than me. with no memory. so "advanced" studio theater is doing.....there.....they....the....they...are....doi...doing...........THE CRUCIBLE! omg. omg. contain yourself sarah. just dont go see it. its ok. AND WHY ISNT THE FANFIC UPDATED. oh geez. *sob* im outta here. i gotta call the man whore.LATER.
sit back and let the evening roll...

sat. january 18,2002
hi im hot. for you. yes you. actulley its a joke. d is here at Hags and her hearing is perked up to the charms of aol im to see if corey is on. its really funny. so wer're gonna goof off. im gone. why do i write in this? no one writes me anything. alright, im way too obnoxious i have to go laugh or yell or something dumb. go see the sad sick sack of meat thats gina at http://radioseven.pitas.com!!!!!!!HAHAHAHAHAH shes gonna kill me.....

Wed, jan. 8 2003
D2 SONIC SESSIONS!
ok. MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 4 DAYS!
so i cant do the damn musical. what kind of bitch is that? i konw. i KNOW. shit. but thats not as big of a deal as this bitch who may not be doing the frickin summer camp. you shit face. WHY? its gonna be ME AND D AND ERICKKKKK AND WE'RE GOING TO HAVE SHIFTS OF FLIRTING WITH HIM SO ONE OF US CAN GET PEACE. and there wont even be a b. what the hell? but i can do the movie...which is going to be something dumb like A Little Mermaid Story of shit like that and i'll be ursula, triton, ariel, the clam, the crab, Sam, and tritons staff of doom because IM GOING TO BE THE ONLY ONES THERE. bitch. mother f************.
::sigh:: so im EXHAUSTED as a hampster running in a wheel. why? because i swam frickin 14.5 laps in 6 frick minutes in gym, THEN i swam a 400, 20 minutes of swimming, bitch 50, bitch 25 no breath and bitch turns. and im a hungrey one too. and this art thing? she's like....get done all 12 paages by tommorow. im like..WHAT THE HELL? but its ok. i do like the project. just not the 10 minutes we had to do it.
WHY THE HELL WONT YOU LOAD? sigh. oh right, i was almost gang raped by The Beast. isnt that spectacular? well i'm off to go sleep.
::Sarah flew off on Sirius's "stick" at 5:34::

Saturday, January 4th, 2003
ok, so Hags and i had the best time today at COS. i think we are the dirtiest people who lived. but we had SO MUCH DAMN FUN! i cant wait for POA . her and i have to go see it some time. ahhh ritual. MACHINE LIKE HIS FATHER! ::spastic marauder influenced orgasm::alright...im off to go eat ben and jerrys and read fanfic for an hour and a half.
::she flew off on sirius's "stick" into the moonlight::

Tuesday, December 31,2002
so wow. here i am. returned. i have been gone since i went up to NY and because i have been busy or lazy or all three. so anyway i came home yesterday and went over to d's and we had fun scaring the youngin sk8rboweyes and watchign high crimes. so yeah thats about it. i dont really feel like writing but i was forced into iti by d. farewell. and i got a new email address! thsnl@lycos.com

Wednesday,December 18 , 2002
the ho has returned,
first off, i was doodling after school with my Hags, and she was cartooning the many madness of HP and i was doodling the many madness of the b family. it was good times. so i came home with the desire to mo it up and doodle like whoa. so thats what i've been doing. besides reading a ton of fanfic (i'm really totally addicted now...eeek...my poor printer, my poor..."family") at fanfic.net or whatever its called. YAY LILY AND JAMES FIC! c'est all parce que i LOVE the marauders! hell yes! esp. sirius! ahhhhhhhh! i'm rereading the third book and yay. marauders rock my socks (c 2002 s.d). (daaaah random marauders link of admiration!)so yeah i was also looking at random fan art and enjoying haleys blue line page.
so anyway, i really need to add a thinger here. hm.... an info bar mo. yeah. you know what i mean right?
eek. so the PERFORMANCES were this past week and they kicked. d makes me so proud. tear. it felt awesome and i won best emerging actor! but de won best ensemble so yay for her! wahoo. you know, this makes me laugh because i think of john who is THE funniest mo ever to live. hahahha. i also drew The D some random Da illustrative stick people. i love illustrating my life. i'm starting a book on my random doodles about ma vie. gah. and what was up with filter? hm...... so im going now...gotta go do something smart or dumb or sarah esque. damn the cat thati named this blog after! gaaaaaaaaaaah!oh and can someone take me and the cat out of our misery and post something on the goddamn tagboard?
this blackbird took these broken wings and learned to fly @ 9:53!oi!

Wednesday, December 11,2002
i cant take much more of this

Wednesday, December 11, 2002
The Rant
Ahemmmmm
ook so you wanna know how im doing today? ya wanna know? YA WANNA KNOW? FINE I'LL TELL YA. so lets see..wehere to start. so i get up right, and its raining out..right. and i'm like mom, im EXHAUSTED i have bags under my eyes and i cant move and i havent had more than an hour of continuos sleep for 5 days can i please stay home from swimming. oh and i have a test tommorow in french and my time could be better spent on that. but no, because it is a sport. and supposedly i NEED THE EXERCISE according to my own mother and it doesnt count that i have gym for an hour and a half each day. so i dont want to go to this crap face thing, and i tell her this ..right? but does she listen , no. she says that too much acting is bad for you. too much of one thing. WELL IT WASNT WHEN I BLOODY PLAYED LACROSSE NOW WAS IT? so i get out the door after my dad is like "sarah dont yell at u-" "IM NOT YELLING AT YOU!" "dont get smart with us dont be so angr-" "I THINK IM ALLOWED TO BE ANGRY" jesus they make me so angry. they act as if im dealing drugs or robbing banks and all im doing is acting. god. i hate them. so i got to school adn was in a bad mood, and i was ranting to d and mr.shank was like "you should be working on your mono-" "i already know which one im doin." and so gina and i are just writing our scene as these mofo-esh rants. so then i get to art, right? right. and i get my quiz, and i dont remember anything and i look down at my paper and everything is circling around me and im dizzy and loosing my balance and about to black out and then i turn in the shit and sigh and go into dumb still life. so gym wasnt that terrible. lunch was alright. french. oh boy, french. oh....boy... well...i got a 76 on my STUPID composition that i SLAVED MY SELF OVER SPENDING 3 HOURS ON IT AND LOOKING UP EVERYTHING AND SHE TELLS ME ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH? so i go after school to talk about this problem and she tells me its not good enough and that im exagerating and have no case so i go to chorus, after she's like" ok?" and im like..."FINE" and pack it up and slam the door. i get to chorus and im like, in tears and freaking out and i go to practice my scene with the beast only they arent having it SO GREAT GREAT GREAT FFFFFFFFFANTASTIC GOOD THING STUDIO THEATRE CUT THE MONOLOGUE NIGHT HUH? BECAUSE THEY REALLY DONT HVAE ENOUGH PERFORMANCES TO SHOW THE HELL OFF AND BE MEAN AND STUFF SO CUT THE ONE THING JERK. so then i just hang out with haley and do harry potter impressions and then i get home at 5 oclock. and my brother is making fun of me and i could cry right now because im really upset that my dad is treating my brother the same way he's treating me and im really upset and i havent talked to d for 4 days on the phone and i miss my d and i wish she was hear so i could talk to you. so i guess i'll just have to wait for tommorow to come and more stuff will probably accumulate in the next hourrs. good night. and if you read this..ya wanna comment for once...???performance in 24.05 hours!
this blackbird took these broken wings and learned to fly @ 6:25!oi!

Monday, December 9, 2002
today was an ok day. i'm still in a beatles freak out. we didnt have chorus so i went to the library and looked in EVERY SINGLE book on arthur miller or salem witchcraft. im so hyped. i'm starting to think about this all the time. my director was right, thats starting to happen. i gotta go because the train leaves soon and i have to put in contacts and get my shit together. (PS I GOT MY D BACK!!!!) what i'm going to remember the most about these past few weeks is eating dinner at 3:30!!! oiiiii vay!
this blackbird took these broken wings and learned to fly @ 3:50!oi!

Saturday, December 7,2002
i figure i should probably blog right? alright. so what i'm doing currently is having a big fat beatles session. its a lot of fun. do you guys know what my favorite song is? i think its "in my life" oh man, too beautiful. i want that played at my wedding or my funeral.so i went to class today in a bad mood. class was intresting. (LUCY IN THE SKKKKY WITH DIAMONDS)erin had a freak out but it was all good. shes so awesome. i absolutly cannot wait CANNOT WAIT till college. oh gosh. its gonna be so awesome. i also talked to john, who is like my mentor. he reassured me about Abigail and told me some reallyawesome stuff.
now to get down to some stuff thats been bothering me. my friendships are starting to rift. some of my other friends im breaking away from which is kinda sad but im changing like whoa into a diffrent person. it seems wierd now. in fact i think the only two people i've grown closer to in the last few months/years/days/weeks is probably gina and colin a lot(aww d can you believe he said that????::squeel::) in a way i kind of feel like im in college because that is such a place where change happens. things are diffrent. i dont know what it is. im losing my friends i think. and its not even one thing or fights or crap like that, its more of we're diffrent people. everyone is seperating now, its not even just me. like at my lunch, everyone sits at the same table except for me and kerry and lauren and devin and i dont feel comfortable with those people anymore. like im an outsider and people treat me that way. god, i hate it. its like ONE BIG CLIQUE and i dont feel welcome there. even with friends like michelle, who i grew close to or suz or kerry and kait.things just dont fit toghether with everyone now. i dont belong in youth group either and that shuts me off. i feel like people have this preconceived notion of me and who i am and they dont care to see who i really am. or maybe i come off as headstrong and critical (which i am) and pessimistic and egotistical( i dont hvae an ego so thats crap) and intiminading i think. i dont belong in high school. hs is full of people who dont know who they are and just flock and follow. "'It's full of phonies, and all you do is study so that you can learn enough to be smart enough to be able to buy a goddam Cadillac some day, and you have to keep making believe you give a damn if the football team loses, and all you do is talk about girls and liquor and sex all day, and everybody sticks together in these dirty little goddam cliques.the guys that are on the basketball team stick together, the Catholics stick together, the goddamn intellectuals stick together, the guys that play bridge stick together. tven the guys that belong to the goddamn Book-of-the-MONTH-Club stick together." THANK YOU from my god, holden, for describing high school exactly the way i feel about the damn place.if you ask me, its superficial shallow shit that i just roll my eyes at which is why i guess i wish i was in college. its weird. ifeel so grown, an old soul. and i especially dislike this cliqueyness where theres like people who talk about eachother behind there friends backs and then put on a worship-ey esque front to them. it makes no sense. the only place i feel i belong anymore is on stage. which is weird, because wehn im acting, im not me. so i guess this is just going all stanislavsky/hagen on you guys saying that i feel more at home being someone else, in this sub-place where nothing is quite reality. sigh. im just sick of FRICKIN PHONIES. i swear, i AM holden. lol. im gonna go read over this long shbeal about me and my ponderings. i really hope i havent offended anyone but thats not my problem. its how i feel. this is me. at least i know who i am.
this blackbird took these broken wings and learned to fly @ 5:33! oi!

Tuesday, DECEMBER 3 2002- the shit hit the fan
(bad mood ahead- enter atyour own stupid risk)
ok. first off, i am upset about that STUPID mofo and his stupid games that he plays and i hate it. second, i got paint on my shit tshirt, third....i got a low grade in crap french, fourth: abagail
abigail is the hardest thing on the earth to do. im very upset. i gtta go to crap practice and finish my CRAP BINGE MEAL.
and miles to go before i wake...
this blackbird took these broken wings and learned to fly @ 3:46!oi!

Tuesday, November 26,2002-
......STINGER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! psh....hahahhahahaha. im so imature. HaGS was in the library hanging out and mo'ing it up...so haGs starts telling us about someone in her play, and a kissing scene and a certain person being stimulated....and i for some reason thought that was the funniest thing ever and procedded to crack up for twenty years while getting wierd looks from people who dont' appreciate my humor. in fact, im in a really (ugh school hands...let me go wash it off!YUCK...k im back) giggle giggle mo mood. it started in french, which by the way i failed my 3rd exam in a row (no time to study. frickit crickit) where we are studying hair and makeup and i sit next to stu who laughs at everything which makes me laugh at everything. so we had pictures of sHIMs from the late 80's and it was really funny. im such a goofball. right. so back to the library, we were just hangning out and fun size was right in front of us and i have no control and started lauging. so we had lots of fun. it was quite a HaGS athon. inf act we had pizza, which went off my diet. which reminds me...
16 frickin days till the show and i need to loose weighto fasto! JEEEES! no control! no control! ::crack of whip:: ok.ok.ok. salad twice a day. apple tommorow pour breakfast. ok.......i can do this
so practice was last night. fun to the pun. i came in all "HEYYYY EVERYONNNNNNN-" and saw john....shutter. so he was watching us and its so wierd. i feel like we're elite gymnasts. in the nice he was cool and everything and during the whole dreadfulllll hour he was there he said nothing at all. just stared. and observed. and i was like, whoa mofo. and B and i kept flirting and messing around and forgetting our blocking and my voice was waving bye bye and michelle was yelling and shit and im sure it looked terrible and unfocused and like i CANT HANDLE THE FRICKIN PART! so then annan came froliking up to the door and making faces and her director came up too and i thought it was annan so i started winking and growling until i realized it. doh. so b and i had a lot of fun and his voice kept cracking (which made me crack up, of cource). its getting really cleaned up. i have to go in an hour early because we have to work on my monologues (more screaming. terrrrrrrrific) :OP. you can tell thatthat wont go too great. so anyway i came home and was upset because i wwant to go to CAPA sooooooo bad. psh. forget that. ::sigh::
so in acting we had to do our stupe scenes and of cource john was not doing anything except sleeping. ::tongue in cheek thinger:: and mr.shank was really cold cuz he really does hate me. and you know what? i'm gonna go laugh some more and i get dinner sometime. and stupe tag board isnt workign. and i have to work on my script.
this blackbird took these broken wings and learned to fly @ 4:15!oi!

Sunday, November 24, 2002
blahhhhh. so yesterday was quite an intresting shit day. first off, i slept over at some random chick's house and then if it werent for me, we wouldnt have been up in enough time because the parents went to BJ's (lol, where else????) and yeah. soooooo then we went to the train and went into philly for acting classes. they were ok. we mostly just did random stuff improv which sucked in the beginning and then got better as we went along. ugh though, that one girl is so ANNOYING and i'm like, chick, what are you trying to accomplish here? i mean really, get your priorities straightened out! and so then we went to the corner crap cart to buy food so gina could take it and eat it. i bought a canadien diet pepsi. it was really funny. diete! wee. john called me loud, gina a transvestite and his jacket dumb. gina called john moody. john says he has parts for us both. wee. so then after waiting around for about 6 years and the earth was eroding around us, gina got picked up so b and i went inside to be funny kids and watch the musical theatre class. they sang this one song that im in love with and that im gonna do for my audition , that john wrote and it's called "you can't stop the rain" and i love it because its perfect for a belty wooman like me.so then we went to crap practice for the fun crucible and it was ok. it was so tiring, b and i got out of there exhausted like only an actor could understand. it was terrible. but we blocked the whole thing so now all we have to do is be fun and go over the damn thing 90 trillion times on monday. and i have to have the damn lines imprinted in my ass/brain combo by tommorow at 6. so how fun is THAT? wee? maybe... im gonna do verbs. because i really want to show them up and do the best frickin part possible to show everyone i deserve the role and i can carry abagail. sorry, that was a determination rant.
so then B gave me a ride home! awww! B is the best guy ever. i think i would marry him in 2 seconds if he asked me to. which of cource would never happen. but he was really nice and let me rant and rant and scream and kick and it was fun. good thing i'll get a ride home w/ him on dec. 6.
anyway, i got home and went to wallmart with my mom and bro and they didnt have god damn aimee mann cd and i was like "you got the new aimee mann cd? it just came out like a month ago?" and the guys like "who?" and they didnt have it. but it was a good thing they had Casey Casum Counts Down The Best Of The 80's. ya know? i mean, phew. that was a close one. so i got some new jeans cuz i'm a fatty and grew out of my old jeans. frickit cricket. i think im actulley really going on a diet for the competition. salad, yogurt, fruit, veg., poultry. cool. seriously though. so we were in the store and i was christmas shopping and The Lump crawled up to me and was liek "its time to go! cmon!" and i was like "one minute i need to buy this!' and he was like "no! time to go!" so i threw the stuff down and made a scene, cuz thats what i do. and i got home and i was pissed off because i was tired and cranky and pre period and sick and i had a headache so i told my mom and dad exactly what i thouhgt of them and crap football and acting and freaked out and my mom was silent and then was like "well clean the cat box" and went downstairs. and i went down to brushmy teeth and my dad was like "im trying to get some sleep. quit bangin things around (i hadnt. delusional much.) and makin so much damn noise" and i said "fine father" and went up stairs and jumped around and creaked my bed around and dropped some things and went to bed. so today is a shit day and i'm still upset from last night and still a stress mess. i cant wait for thanksgiving. but for now im gonna leave you kids. have fun with it.if anyone sees rb, tell him to call my cell please.
this blackbird took these broken wings and learned to fly @ 1:34! oi!

Thursday, November 21, 2002
Hags! i understand what the heckoid sprites are cuz i followed the link! wee! fun stuff! KATE...what the heck? varsity what what? i think SO! oh baby! oh BABY!
wee. things are going pretty terrible but im alright i guess. i made fun fun cartoon for d, "why are you laughing at me?" i am currently laughing the shit off my face. lol. how hilarious. i have no control. its quite a terrible thing, now that i think about it but at least i can laugh , alright?
so mom is going out to buy me new jeans. wee. i need them like WHOAH and beyond. i really wish i could go to walmart since i love that store buthey. its ok. breathe. breathe. STLD 2??OH BABY!
sorry.
right.
i need to add a info bar that tells about evil me and my evil companions, can you help me and my poor web challanged self??thank you
so...oh yeah oh YEAH! i forgot! i wrote my christmas list today and what to get people! i'm so excited! and your all on it. and one other person but their my polyanna jon and i cant tell them that! wee! go visit ma chick's site, find her email and tell her you love her! i'm gonna go now. so drop me a line and i dont mean line the play, you! one more thing! she was a sk8rboi and together they sk8id owtsyde the sk8rparc. nice. lol. oh and did ya tell b pledge already? LOL! the boyscout shirt ::dies, for the second time tonight:: well im leaving you all! love ya!
thisblackbird took these broken wings and learned to fly @ 7:59! oi!

Wed....later in the day
well ok. so it is not the best layout in the world. but still, i tried. spent most of my day reading harry potter and surfing online for gifts for people (yes christmas is a little over a month away! time to start saving) so the day wasnt a total waste. i marvel at haleys artistic abilitys and am right now really wanting my old layout back. poooh hooo. does anyone remember the site that had it? it was on beautify your diary but the page wont work. this is only temp. people. well i better go prepare myself for people to come home. like gina. (she pictures gina yelling at her for being sick. the mauling and yelling is quite reminiscent of some nature show of lions attacking their pray she saw on discovery channel or something. she shrinks up in horror now, and rocks back and forth, scared) so have a great day!

Wednesday, nov. 20
well hello again friends. i lost the old layout so i decided to go all out and make a new one. so here you go ...for your enjoyment. you may be happy to know that this CRAPPY layout is my first one and is loosely based on another one (look around for the link) so i basicly MADE IT MYSHELF! wee! isnt that fun?